| Midway through the first week... |
[11.25.09 @ 7:51am] |
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... and I already want to curl up and die.
Today:
Meet Parent and Child 1 at my Church at 12:30
Pick up Child 2 at school at 3pm
Child 1 is picked up from me at 4pm
Finish with Child 2 at 6pm
Cubs at 6:30 pm
Home by 9pm (I hope)
Tomorrow:
Playgroup 9am to 1pm
Child 3 from 2 - 5pm?
Friday:
Child 2 8:30 to 11:30(?) am
Child 3 (if not on Thursday) 2- 5pm?
Child 4 6:30 - ?:??
Saturday:
Pick up popcorn the Cubs sold between 10 am and 2pm in Dorval.
Pick up Child 4 and carseat at 5pm
Scouting Dinner 6:30pm - ?:?? (have to run a game for the Beavers)
Finish with Child 4 sometime after 11pm
Sunday:
Youth Group? 10:30 am
I also have stuff to finalize for the Ottawa in May trip, Christmas trees to sell, a play to go to, parenting stuff, house stuff...
Kill me now? Please?
M.
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| Here we go again... |
[11.23.09 @ 3:36am] |
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Sultry has THREE WEEKS of the Shift From Hell (6:30 am to 2:30 pm) so we're trying to be good and go to bed early.
I slept about half an hour, woke up with a headache and couldn't get back to sleep. It's been two hours now and I'm finally starting to feel sleepy. At least this won't be one of the times I'm up all night but it's gonna suck when the alarm goes off in two hours for Sultry and three hours for me.
I don't know how the hell we're going to survive this.
M.
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| Communication failed. |
[11.20.09 @ 12:55pm] |
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Two weeks ago the Job I'm Not Sure I Like was cancelled at pretty much the last minute because the little boy had a cold. It was cancelled again last week for the same reason the night before I was supposed to go in and she asked if I would come either Thursday or Friday this week. I replied that I could come either day but Friday would possibly be best and got a "see you then" but nothing about what time she wanted me to be there at.
I've sent two emails trying to confirm for today (I don't have a cell number and the landline is mostly for the fax) and I don't want to go there and not be needed or end up standing on her doorstep for an hour (again). Surely there's nothing wrong with me waiting here until I get an answer?
M.
edit: heard back and yeah, there was a breakdown somewhere along the line. She didn't get my other emails so today is cancelled. I'm good with that.
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[11.19.09 @ 6:48am] |
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It's been a really long time since I fell asleep before putting my mask on. Usually I wake up midway through the night and put it on but this time I didn't.
I still, half an hour later, feel like I'm drowning.
M.
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| Not clicking with the clique |
[11.17.09 @ 10:30pm] |
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There's a group in my ASL class that's been together since ASL 101 and they're thicker than thieves. They meet every week to practice, they sit together, go to ASL camp together, have coffee at break together...
On of them in particular doesn't seem to like me much, one of them does like me and another doesn't care either way. Person 1 is the sort that has *all* the books and videos and toys and she and Person 3 were the ones who went to camp. Person 2 had to work. The campers are b.o.r.e.d.-- the only reason they're in this class is because Level 203 didn't happen. They make damn sure we all know they're just killing time. To the point where they are frequently whispering complaints to each other.
Person 2 and I frequently share a table and Person 1 sits around the corner from her. Today I come into class and there's a very slight difference in the placement of the tables and a big difference in the placement of the butts. Person 2 is where I normally sit, Person 1 is in her place and I end up on the other side of the class -- across from the seat I've been in 7(!) other nights.
I've seen Person 1 smack Person 2's arm for teaming up with me instead of her when we're put into groups (she had left the room and came in after the *teacher* assigned up to a group) . I don't think there was any kind of coincidence tonight -- she meant to be in that spot and for me to be somewhere else.
It's a mark of just how much I love this language that I'm able to tolerate being in a class with this woman. I find her attitude absolutely toxic and I'm not sure how much longer I'll last.
All that being said, my marks are in for the "Story of Me" assignment and I got 11/13 (he miiiiiight bump it up since a sign he thought was wrong was from a website he's told us to use). Tonight's homework netted me a 11/12 -- I had a few signs wrong and my vocabulary wasn't *quite* where it should have been. With these marks, having only missed one and a half classes and *never* using my voice in class I've pretty much passed. How well I pass depends on the exam and that should be ok.
Also-- turns out he's the BIGGEST V fan since me'Sultry.
M.
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| Win! |
[11.15.09 @ 7:31pm] |
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Expressvu has a free preview of the AMC channel until Dec. 31st and besides some pretty cool movies they have the new version of The Prisoner on all week!
M.
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| Because the fun just keeps coming... |
[11.15.09 @ 1:30pm] |
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Since 6pm Friday I have logged 10 hours of babysitting (with two more to go today) and 3 hours of babysitting-related birthday party.
I've dealt with:
A bored 6 year old on a *massive* sugar high who wanted food, diversion and to talk(mostly all at the same time) for three hours straight.
A 12 year-old who decided to test the babysitter and was a royal pain when normally she's the sweetest kid ever.
Parents who came home 45 minutes late(when I was supposed to be somewhere), didn't call on their way home (I was going to change to go out), didn't have the full amount (I was coming back the next day) and had a big argument while I was still in the house.
A bowling birthday at 10am that I was late for. With about 18 5-6 year-olds most of whom I didn't know. I was a rockstar -- origami and iPod Touch FTW!
A much quieter, freshly vaccinated 6 year-old who went to bed like a lamb but needed to be checked often "just in case".
Parents who were 45 minutes late, short-changed me, didn't call (so that I could arrange to be picked up), didn't pay for the cab I took at midnight the night before *and* asked me to babysit again next week!
A leaking diaper at the start of what was supposed to be a three hour nap. Toddler has a cold, is tired and *needs* that nap but is refusing to go back to sleep. At the moment he is bellowing my name from his crib because he's so very glad I'm here and just wants to play.
Parents who on finding out I have a time crunch have guaranteed they will be back on time and are driving me home.
M.
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| The heat is on. |
[11.8.09 @ 6:51pm] |
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So we've been having trouble with Th'Princess and her heater. She cranks it up way too high for no reason and often leaves clothes and other things on it. We've had three incidents where she's melted plastic and singed clothes.
Like any normal parents we laid down ground rules: make sure the heater is clear, turn the heat down when you leave the room and DO NOT turn it up past 15 (which is actually about 23C).
Tonight I found something of her's and opened her door to put it in her room. It was like opening a portal to the Sahara-- she had the thermostat cranked up all the way and she'd been out of the room ALL day.
I've made a little "adjustment" and now she *can't* turn the heat up past 15. Too bad, so sad.
Th'Boy, whose room is MUCH colder, hasn't had his heat on at all this year and hasn't complained in the slightest. Probably because he knows that he has to clean his room if he wants it on.
When the *hell* will it be March?
M.
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| To be shot or not to be? |
[11.8.09 @ 4:53pm] |
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Quebecers with a chronic medical condition can now get their H1N1 shots. Does Apnea count as a chronic medical condition?
Does the fact that I frequently care for children under the age of six months mean that I should have gone last week?
Do I even *want* the shot?
I deal with a *lot* of children every week and the playgroup is pretty much a petri dish. At some point Captain Tripps is gonna come calling.
I'm not in a panic, but I'm not exactly blase about the plague either.
Why is "Don't Fear the Reaper" stuck in my head?
M.
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| Why is it... |
[11.8.09 @ 4:47pm] |
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...that as soon as Sultry tidies a flat surface (such as the coffee table) I'm struck by the urge to start a long, drawn-out, messy project?
Not that I'm going to. I value my life.
Now her side of the living room is beautiful and mine is a chaotic mess. Balance must be restored!
Wonder where my dollhouse stuff is...
M.
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| Tonight I miss TV. |
[11.2.09 @ 7:10pm] |
I want to be able to channel surf. I don't feel like watching a movie or reading or listening to music. All of these make my head hurt.
I absolutely refuse to get sick. No. Not gonna happen. No way.
M.
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| Playing hooky. |
[11.2.09 @ 4:50pm] |
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I've been taking my mask off in my sleep the last two days and seem to have screwed myself over pretty good. I bet the switch to daylight savings and my pestilence-ridden son aren't doing me any good either. My head is achy, my chest is tight and I don't feel the least bit artistic.
Therefore, I will skip ceramics class tonight.
M.
PS-- kinda wish I could go in long enough to show off my last piece and have it fired. Oh well.
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| Ok, we're waaaaaaay beyond nuts now. |
[11.1.09 @ 1:39am] |
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You would not believe the latest cracked idea I've had in the pursuit of my ... space.
There's a building that been sitting empty for eighty bazillion years that I love dearly and somehow it's gotten into my head that if I can find the right people to talk to I can make it into something great.
I was wondering when my Dad's insane side of the gene pool would kick in. At least I'm working for Good and not Evil. Pretty sure he never bothered with either concept.
I know I'm crazy and obsessed. Believe me. But I also know I can make this work if I could only find a place and a way to cover the first two or three months.
M.
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| SCREEEEEEEEEEEEEEAM. |
[10.31.09 @ 2:07pm] |
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If I get one more email about the fucking camp bill I might actually EXPLODE. The summer camp insists we owe them over $1500. We don't.
No one has owned up to being the ones who broke the Minister's windshield. They've decided to pool group money to pay for it and they expect my Cubs to pay for it out of their dues.
I am not in a good mood. This doesn't help.
M.
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| Going forward with The Plan. |
[10.30.09 @ 5:07pm] |
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I emailed the rental company about a loft. If i find a way to make this work it would be available to *you* as well.
You could use it for:
Parties
Games
Crash space
Photo shoots
Workshops
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The possibilities are endless and all I would ask is that you clean up after yourself and don't piss off the neighbours. A donation towards the rent would be nice as well.
I'm damn well going to make this work. I *need* to make this work.
M.
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| Mostly ok. |
[10.30.09 @ 4:19pm] |
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I've had my cry and I'm getting ready to move on. The fact that I am *still* getting emails over the summer camp fiasco is a *lovely* distraction.
I spent some time seriously wallowing. By conservative estimates this would be something like our thirtieth(at the very least) attempt in *twelve* years. Out of that we've had maybe 5 semi-perfect tries and this was the most perfect one of all. There are a lot of variables in this: my weight, timing, stress....
I'm going to spend the weekend looking for my papers and on Monday I'll call a new clinic and the real fun will begin. My only shot at IVF or other help is if the DivaDaddy and I go in as a couple. The won't use a known donor, only a spouse/partner. It can't hurt to have the tests redone and if the province is covering IVF I could go that route as a last resort.
M.
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